Wednesday, 20 June 2012

Blue Moon

Kabul 2011

I was standing alone. You can probably see the link to the title already.  Clever huh?  Anyway, there I was, standing alone.  It was late (or early, depending on your habits), about 0100 in the morning here, which, with the current time difference, made it 9.30 in the evening there.  Did you notice the clever switch between army and civvy time?  Here to please.  Anyway, I was.  Standing.  Alone.  I had gone outside to get some fresh air.  The room I was working in was best described as fetid.  Manned 24 hours and full of sweating, smelly men, all of whom would have rather been anywhere else but there at that time.  I went outside to clear my head.  It had been a long day and another fairly depressing one, with Australian, American and British dead and wounded.  I try so hard to think of something jolly to say in these emails but it's not as easy as that.  (I am going to have to dig out some sort of "cat-stuck-up-a-tree rescue" or "soldier wins war" good news story aren't I?) 

So.  Standing.  Alone.  I looked up and although it was another crystal clear night I couldn't see the moon. Not even a glimpse.  Nothing, nada.  Probably all part of some dastardly Taleban plot.  Damn them and their meddling.  Best I investigate.  So I did.  Apparently it wasn't the Taleban.  There just wasn't a moon.  That made me sad.  I will tell you why in a minute.  Upon further investigation I discovered that most years have twelve full moons, each of which occurs, approximately monthly (one lunation being precisely 29 days 12 hours 44 minutes and 3 seconds - see, informative and educational.  That's me). There are very few days when there is no moon.  Great.  Just my luck.  Here's an interesting but tricky maths bit.  Each solar calendar year is about eleven days longer than the lunar year of 12 lunations. The extra days accumulate, so every two or three years there is an extra full moon. Da dah!  The Blue Moon.  Interestingly, 31 May is the last day of the lunar calendar as well as the month.  That doesn't happen often either, both dates coinciding.  I digress.  Back to the email.

Alone.  Standing.  No moon. Sad.  I'm getting there.  Hold on.  Early in my tour in a telephone conversation with my son, who was 3 at the time, he told me he missed me.  I missed him enormously too. I didn't realise quite how much until he said it. When he said it, I got a lump in my throat and a wrench in the stomach.  I am sure he did miss me, just as my wife, daughter, and I hope, everyone else, missed me.  But hearing it from him hit me hard.  In the side of the phonecabin I was calling from there was a small window looking up into the sky from which I could see the moon.  I told my son to get Mummy to take him outside when we had finished the phone call.   If he looked up he would see the moon.  I told him I would also look up and see the moon.  I told him it was the same moon I could see and if he thought of me, I would think of him.  Every time he could see the moon, Daddy could see the same moon.  From then on, whenever I see it I think of him.

Anyway.  There was no moon.  Let alone an extra one.  It made me blue.

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